flashback

urgh strange flash backs for a little girl? what does that even mean.. she looks familiar :/ she keep cutting herself.. why? seriously dont get thisss.. urgh -_- i hate this

suicide?

had suicidal thought this moring.. missed college for the first time :/... some ex freidnds and people are having to be telling me they're gonna do something '' watch out'' dunno :/
having strange thought about everything :/
wanna buy a blade but kina can't probs tomorrow.. i dont think he replied my meanful message or something has happened idk.. i think he hate mes anything.. he didnt say my name to hanging out.. or fave friend haha :/ i should just give up on him but why can't i? cause he ma ''mate'' idk anymore :/ can't i just die gosh.. why am i so down for? even much can't save me no more :L